Thursday, August 2, 2007

The Book-Binder


(Kindly note--this is the longest blog I have ever written. I know it is inappropriate to post essays on my blog, and I know it might irritate the casual reader to go through the entire thing...if you have time, pl go through, if you don't skip to the end, coz it carries a message. This one's been rotting in my account for quite some time, and so I thought I should put it to good use and blog it)



Come every June or July, my heart wells in the sweet expectation of the monsoons. But June is not only about monsoons, it’s that special time of the year when I ritualistically, tenderly give up my newly acquired tinkle comics for a couple of weeks as they’ll be visiting the book binder, to have them neatly trimmed off, pressed and binded, to be preserved eternally, in colourful red and green covers for me to savor for the days to come.

This book-binder interests me, because he is like none other. He is a traditional one, I can see, he’s been in the line for many years. I know my books well, and I know this dear man well also, and his work is always neat, unselfishly completed with faithfulness and loyalty. One can’t help but admire the quality of his work…anything entrusted to him is carried out to the best of his ability, never once, it seems, has he lost interest in his work. Yet, the little old man down Gandhi Bazaar Road remains unrecognized: he reposes in a silent cocoon of his, not wishing to really come out and scream that he deserves a pat on his back for working so hard for all these years... but he has faith in himself, and for him, that is enough--it gives him strength to continue the mundane work of his.

His workplace is nothing too special—it is old, derelict and neglected corner of a building, and is supremely unattractive and drab. It can easily slip off one's eyes: many people who live here are unaware of it’s existence. But I just happened to chance on it, when I needed to get my books bound. My eyes desperately sought a binder, and they rested with delight on the small grey corner of the building which announced Elegant Printing Works.

Initially, I was reluctant, I suppressed my urge to rush my books to his place—I had to be careful. It was a matter of selecting a talented binder. I hated the insensitive kinds who were not devoted to their work. I was already dissatisfied with my previous binder who had done a bad job with my books and I had decided to be even more selective when it came to choosing the right book-binder. Well, the first look at this man told me he was the right one. I took my books to him one day as he sat working, with my beloved comic books in a heavy plastic cover. I observed him till I was allowed to speak. He was binding some books, and beside him rested a think wad of gum, which he was plastering onto the book covers. Over in one corner of the room rested a rusty binding machine, and there was a sort-of a makeshift attic above his weary head which was stashed with all kinds of bound, yellowing books and I wondered if they were still readable. His room was small, and the man himself was small, wearing thick spectacles, and a white bunion. We gave our comics to him, repeatedly murmuring that he ought to be careful, because these comics were important to me. He asked us to return in three days when the books would be ready and I waited anxiously to see my books return home.

I hurried to the binder’s ( the 8th of July, it was, according to my Journal entry) back seated on my mother’s two-wheeler, and my books were bound and ready at the shop, as promised. The man was waiting. The payment he requested was minimal (it looks like he was unaware of how much the other binders were demanding, evidently, it was more than he was.) I remember it was a beautiful day, there is a temple neighboring his humble shop, and there were people visiting the temple. The famous giant trees of my neighborhood which I am so proud of did not sway, they were too burly for the winds, but the leaves rustled, and small rains started off, and I knew they would get stronger.

I could not help but feel true pity towards this man, a devoted, hard-working man, an old timer working away on his rusting book-binding machine. Judging by the state of his workplace, he did not earn much. It looked like we were his only customers in days. There was this overwhelming pity for this man. Previously, I had not bothered about him: just like many others, he had passed unnoticed like a commoner under my eye. That day, I made a promise. From that moment, I decided that every year, it would be to this man I would bring my Tinkle comics for binding, and every year, he would, without doubt return my bound books…and everytime I read them, I would feel grateful to the sturdy hands which had ensured me that pleasure.

That is my problem—I care too much, and I am proud of it. I cannot be insensitive, however small a problem is. Maybe, it was my impulse to feed this man, my understanding that he deserves more than he has earned that makes me take my Tinkle books to him every year. I also know, I am not the ultimate one, and yes, I only take my books to him once a year, and you might argue that the money he gets out of this will not suffice…he cannot live on it. True, but it always helps to be a little kinder…to make a small change, to take a little step and extend a caring hand. Some helping silently is better than remaining indifferent, is it not?

For the past three years, I have unfailingly taken my books to him, and he has worked with great perseverance, the only changes I have seen in his workplace it an addition of 2 chairs—A wicker one with an old pillow and a simple steel folding chair. I suspect he gets back-pain often, and when I visit him, I usually sit on the cold steel chair, leaving the other one empty.

This year, once again, the time arrived to count my books, number them and visit the book-binder. I packed them up neatly in a plastic bag as usual, but I was unable to go along with my mother, as it was test-time, and requested her to drop it off at the Binder’s. She did so, and she returned and told me, that this was possibly the last time I would have my books bound here, because the old man was closing his shop.

It is sad, somehow, his defeat dampened my spirit. I don’t know why. Maybe it was the evidence that my simple job of sustaining him had failed…I asked her why. She told me the poor man was burdened under constant pressure from the owner who had permitted him to use that useless corner of the building for his purposes.
“The owner has asked him to vacate the place” she said, “And the man has agreed to close down. They are not doing good business.”

Finally, I understood why. Recently, a Spencer’s supermarket had erupted next to his workplace—with flashy orange displays to attract customers. I don’t like such changes—a supermarket in front of a temple and next to a book-binder looks misplaced, but that's the sad thing about Bangalore, everything is growing haphazardly…and sometimes, I feel angered, as if I want to put an end to the constant changes the city is facing, showing it’s ugly face in every corner of the city....I would want it to stop, I would like my city to return to it’s original splendor, although I realize it is near to impossible.

I suspect, the supermarket wants to widen, engulfing the poor binder’s shop, and the old man has given in….I know he will stop working now. I only wonder how his future will be…..my ‘ritual’ is broken, and I am sure, I shall not find a better book-binder anywhere in the city…and I shall blame this all to the rapid urbanization, which had unpleasantly affected me, and incensed me beyond belief.

But whatever’s done is done. The truth remains that I shall miss this old man and his shop, the wicker chair, the old, dusty attic…everything. He shall remain unforgotten, because his handiwork rests in my hands….I will be missing you, old man.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

First Day of College

Finally having finished another exam, my mind is now diverted once again to Harry Potter, Muggles, witches and wizards, after a tiring week of trying to remember words like “Myocardial Infarction” and “Electromagnetic potential”. I skimmed through my previous posts, which I hadn’t done in a long time, and found a nice suggestion, advising me to talk about my college life.

Ah, yes, I have so much to talk about college…I guess I’ll start today because I haven’t ever written about college in my previous posts. My college days are quick, happy and generally more comforting than school. But I won’t forget how it all started off, a little more than a year ago. It was after my tenth, I applied to nearly 4 colleges, out of which three let me down. I studied in Kumarans school till tenth, and my college welcomed me warmly, and I was happy I was returning to the Kumarans family once more, I secured a seat in Kumarans college…and initially, college did not feel like college at all.

The first day was something like a dream, I remember I was in a pink dress, with my hair neat and tied up and very confused at to how to find my classroom. My timid heart was welling with excitement, my face was red and alert, and there were butterflies in my stomach. But I found my classroom, and there were people…so many new faces, it would be difficult, I thought, to find a friend. I found my schoolmate, Shalini was in the same class, and it was with relief that I stuck to her, talking to her, the only familiar face, out of fifty-eight unknowns. But there was certainly that feeling that I had suddenly grown up, I was in college, somehow, I found the truth unconvincing.

Now, I look back…it’s been an year. Just a sweet small year, I can’t believe first PU got over so quickly. Now, I know everybody quite well, school friends have gently slipped away from my iron hand, and I have found some new friends. Do you people remember your first days of college? I would be like it if you could share your experiences with me.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Bound by an Unbroken Spell for 7 years

It’s that time of the year again! The Pottermania is raging everywhere, and I’ve caught the fever too…I know what the adults are thinking—Harry Potter is nothing special. The modern day kids should return to our ancient Indian lore. Sure, I’ve heard that before, and I have read ‘ancient’ tales of India too, but that shouldn’t prevent me from reading HP, it’s one of my very favorite books. The Harry Potter series have been a part of my life since the time when I was in 6th, when I read the first book and went totally crazy over anything to deal with Harry. Now, something of a saga—an era of Potter maniacs is coming to an end. JK Rowling has entered History books, broken records, and the world is queuing up for the last book. After we grow too old for Fantasy, I’m sure we’ll forget the spell Potter cast on us as children. I know all good things should come to an end, and it is time to bid adieu to the famous series.

It is just sad that I am missing out on much of the fun. I have to study for a test on Monday, so I can’t rush to Sapna Book House at 5:30 A.m. to get the last book on the first day…and I haven’t watched the recent movie either. I’ll catch on after my test…I’m planning on buying the book and watching the movie in August. Right now, I am busy studying and in between, trying to guess the fate of Harry Potter, which will be revealed to everyone who is waiting, all over the world on Saturday.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

A Lost Friendship

When I was a kid, there were five of us—Me, Shruthi, Shravya, Monisha and Pooja. We were what you could call “inseparable friends”. We were into doing everything together—playing, fighting, sharing…teasing. I now look back and think how precious that friendship was. It is not that now we are all arch rivals, or that we hate each other now, but growing up has changed us. We are different. We now know our manners, and we know we need to be dignified in speech and expression. We are not anymore those sissies who shared with each other the stories of how scared we were of going to bathroom alone at night, how the howling winds scared us, or how we secretly cried when our mothers scolded us. Sometimes, I hope that we could all have remained the same way we were as kids—stubborn, happy, and absolute pranksters.

Well, we all live so close to each other, just around the same street corner. But now, all of us are as far away from each other as the earth and mars. I don’t know what is going on with the others. Life’s so busy that I can just manage to smile and drop a quick ‘Hi’ to my friend shruthi from the balcony. Shravya is now a deep thinker, and academically absorbed in her work, and it would be sinful on my part to interrupt her. Pooja has ‘cooler’ friends and Monisha is busy with AIEEE classes. What happened to the leisurely days of scrambling across stones, pulling each other’s hair and throwing paper rockets at passerby? What happened to those giggles, laughter and dreams that we shared with each other? Somethings make be feel bitter. I don’t know if it is just me, or my friends feel it too…I want that friendship to return. I want more leisurely summers to spend…I want the fun back in life. All of them are pretty young girls now, smart, totally dignified, but if I know them well, they are hiding in their shells. I think they too miss the fun…it’s not enjoyable to pretend to be ‘adultish’ anymore. Something as precious as friendship should not be lost. I have decided that something ought to be done. We shouldn’t meander away from each other like this. Perhaps, if I gather all of them, and if we visit the local park together, the visit will reveal something which I already know…that they too wish to have the friendship back….I am hopeful that the ‘inseparable friends’ shall become truly inseparable forever.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Belaku Shishu Vihara

Being in second PU naturally means getting up early for tuitions. That is one of the most difficult times of the day, trying to open my droopy eyes, and controlling the urge to snuggle up in bed and going back to sleep. Just at that horrible moment of semi-wakefulness, a soothing balm calms my mind. It’s the prayers the orphaned children are reciting—they live two houses away from me, and they amaze me sometimes. They are always awake by five, no matter the weather, reciting their mantras, while the entire colony sleeps. Belaku Shishu Vihara, where these children live, is a lovely home for destitute and orphaned children. Sometimes, visiting this place can invoke strange and uncontrollable emotions in me. I am scared for them. How will they create their own futures? Who will give them all those life-lessons? But, strangely, they are confident, warm and friendly kids as kids could be, and not to mention highly disciplined. When I sit in the balcony to study, a kid stares at me through their balcony, and a heart-melting smile as soft as a cloud stretches across her face…I smile back, it is not a careless reciprocation of an innocent greeting. It is not a happy smile either. There will be a mixture of emotions playing on my face—sympathy, sadness, concern and yes, a silent ‘hello’ which this kid immediately understands.

While some people might say these children are really underprivileged, I think I can look into their hearts. They lead a unique life—something different from what all of us have lead, something which cannot be fully understood by people like us. For them, life means enjoying one day at a time, and facing everything together. Life is about learning the things that matter, about understanding life-skills because they will definitely need it. While going to bed does not mean a good night kiss from a mother, it might mean a comforting touch of a friend’s hand, and suppressed giggles throughout the night. While they might not enjoy pillow fights with brothers and sisters, they still practice for the annual Belaku function with full enthusiasm. They realize that they are dependent on others for food and shelter, but they also realize they need not crib about it, for it is nothing to be ashamed of. They also have understood that they are different—they know that the future can be difficult and times can be trying, but they have learnt not to be afraid. All these kids are truly special. If you are a resident of Bangalore, you can drop in sometime, donate food or cloths and help these children. You can make a difference! Come to Belaku, and share some smiles!

Contact Belaku Shishu Vihara
5th Cross, NR colony (near Acharya Patha Shala college of Commerce)
Bangalore-560019

Sunday, June 24, 2007

I saw Karnataka's state bird today!!




There I was, minding my own buisness today, I was sitting in the Balcony, trying to study that boring Interference of Light chapter from Physics, when this bird decided it would be smart on me and wandered around, right in front of my eyes, challenging my instincts. Only a birder will understand that sudden rush of excitement when he spots a new species. What can be more attractive than extremely pleasant weather and a species of bird that I hadn't seen ever before? Well, it happened. I abandoned my books again ( I needed to convince myself that I was pretty good at physics, having done quite well in the college test, so now was the time to relax), I rushed to the net, and started searching for the species. Well, I found it! It's the Indian ROller I saw today, a pretty little creature, a mixture of sea-blue wings and dull brown--a real treat to the eyes. Did you know something else? The Indian ROller is the Karntaka's State Bird!! Being a Kannadiga, I did'nt know that till today, until I searched the net. More than being ashamed, this has somehow excited me. I had never seen this bird before, and this is the first time I spotted it. I am pretty sure it is an Indain Roller ('almost sure' is called as a 'giss' in birding terms) I think our proud state bird has done something to me today, it has jolted my interest in Bird-watching once again. I had given up some time ago, as I was frustrated that there were not many birds left in Bangalore except the crows, jungle mynahs and tailorbirds, but I guess I need a litte more pateince. I need to fish out my old birding book now, and make a fabulous new entry. After all, spotting the KArntaka's state bird for the first time deserves some celebration!

Monday, June 18, 2007

A Change of Heart


Well, my tests are over, the world is beautiful, and I am back to being an active blogger! Ah yes...after a brief lapse when I thought of stopping blogging, I have realized a simple truth. I need a stimulant to make me read, (no, it's not caffine, that's too intoxicating!),and my blog is just the right medicine to boost my neurons to an active condition. If there is a thought clouding my brian, I write it down, or type it into my comp, and zap, it has dissapeared, and my mind then becomes fairly clear, and concentrating becomes easier. I would like to thank Mr. RK, whoever he is, his reply to my previous blog was very encouraging. Thanks for the advise, Mr.Ramachandran also. One of my greatest drawbacks is that I tend to buckle if too much of preasure is put on me. And I have a major exam-phobia, and exams make me mentally ill. I constantly try to push my limits, trying to study for eight hours in one go, etc etc, and that is when everything becomes mundane and quite boring. Constant studying confuses me, and thoughts get muddled up. I guess that's when I need my dose of medicine, and that's when I step into the blogosphere. Besides, I have convinced myself that I won't give up blogging for anything. It only takes five minutes of my time, and it never hurts to take a small break from studying, does it? Being in second year does not mean I need to give up things which I love doing. I can still stare out of the window of the city bus, enjoy the evening breeze, smell roses and relax on a college bench reading RK Narayan's My Days during lunch break...and blog too, cause I love doing it!!